Endometriosis Depression: Feeling Alone in the Pain

I move through the evening like I am wadding through a pool of thick, mud and find some way to turn on the shower. I lit the candles and turn off the lights. I turn the shower to the warmest setting I can muster in an attempt to feel, anything. And, I stand. I stand in the same spot for what feels like hours, although I know only seconds have passed. I contemplate my life. Why do I have to feel constant pain? Why do I have to feel alone? Why do I feel isolated? Why am I lost? Why I am feeling this way?

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Clearing Out My Closet for a Fresh Start

The best part of this year is going to be starting it with the surgery I have desperately been awaiting since the start of my pain relapse in November. My doctor’s office finally called on Friday, December 30, and informed me that I will be having my pre-op appointment on January 17, and surgery on January 19, 2017. I could not have been excited – you would have thought I was told I’d won the lottery!

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