Drowning in the Mess
Sometimes I still feel so lost in my own life. The closer I get to discovering my true self and my passion in life, the further I fall in knowing who I am and what I want to be.
I constantly feel stuck between points of transition and it is infuriating.
Right now I’m living in someone else’s home waiting for the next phase of my life to start and everything feels so… temporary. I cannot wait to start my new chapter and be over feeling helpless. It stinks being so far away from my FH, too. The distance makes it tough to solve issues that arise, discuss any problems, or you know, plan a wedding. The stressors of work for me, school for the FH and then wedding planning are enough to make both of us go crazy… I am praying we make it out alive.
All I know is that I’m struggling to keep my head above water and need some room to breath. I need a break. From my car accident at the beginning of the month to my sudden onset of dizziness (most likely associated with the accident), I’m going crazy trying to balance my health with work and trial preparations. I never thought pain could last this long, but man, I underestimated the power of collisions! No joke!
Here’s hoping next week calms down. I need to see my FH and my Toby.