This Too Shall Pass
Yesterday was not a good day for my pain. I had to leave work early and was lucky to make it home to my husband’s comfort. I got into bed and snuggled up with my heating pad. Unfortunately, as soon as I was starting to feel normal again and went to dinner with the husband – a migraine decided to creep up on me. As soon as we got home, I quickly folded a load of clothes, then texted the husband that I was going to lay down until my headache cleared…
It did not pass, and still has not.
I was able to go to work today, which took off a lot of pressure and stress. Yet, I have still not been able to reach the doctor office to schedule my surgery. With this pain showing no sign of stopping or lessening in severity anytime soon, I am really pushing to get this excision surgery done as soon as practical. Right now, I am certain that I am toeing the line between annoying and pleasant with my voicemail messages – although, I know the doctor is well aware that suffering makes some of us a little crazy and we do have to be our own advocates. I have no regrets calling every day until I get a callback.
Last night, I started having a weird “head high” feeling that has not left me, either. This is all in addition to the migraine. Maybe it is the medicine I am taking for my endometriosis pain? Or, maybe it is the brain fog everyone talks about? Whatever it is I am having a lot of issues paying attention to anything. When I went to pump gas today, I actually got out of the car and had a momentary lapse of memory when I could not remember why I was at the gas station. It was terrifying.
Losing any capacity is cause for concern. My memory, though, is what I depend on daily in my career. I need my brain to be at 100% and to think that something may be affecting me to the point that my brain may be losing some ability to recall short-term recall, well, that is something I want to correct immediately.
For now I am going to take things one day at a time and do my best not to worry about things I do not have control over. This is the hardest part for me because I always think of the worst case scenario, but there is no option for me at this point. Time is going to be my worst enemy in the coming weeks.
By God’s grace, though, I will get through it!
Stay Connected to One L of a Journey!
Want extra content + fun rewards? Consider purchasing a subscription through Patreon to help support OLoaJ!