I have become obsessed with a new podcast (My Favorite Murder) that has finally given me the courage to start writing about an area I’ve always been interested in and was always afraid to write about because I thought you’d judge me – murder (and serial killers). Nonetheless, I’m learning that there are a lot […]
I move through the evening like I am wadding through a pool of thick, mud and find some way to turn on the shower. I lit the candles and turn off the lights. I turn the shower to the warmest setting I can muster in an attempt to feel, anything. And, I stand. I stand in the same spot for what feels like hours, although I know only seconds have passed. I contemplate my life. Why do I have to feel constant pain? Why do I have to feel alone? Why do I feel isolated? Why am I lost? Why I am feeling this way?
The injustice I see each day is astonishing. The number of people who have given up on the system, people… Themselves… It’s heartbreaking at times.
Yet, when I have days I like I had today when I can rest my head on my pillow knowing I fought as hard as I could. I paid every ounce of what I have on the court today (literally).
The best part of this year is going to be starting it with the surgery I have desperately been awaiting since the start of my pain relapse in November. My doctor’s office finally called on Friday, December 30, and informed me that I will be having my pre-op appointment on January 17, and surgery on January 19, 2017. I could not have been excited – you would have thought I was told I’d won the lottery!
Must love dogs. I always laughed at the movie because I thought everyone in their right mind loved dogs. I mean, everyone does, right? I went through most of my life believing it.
Then I met the man who would become my husband.
Yesterday I discussed my struggle with maintaining a balance with my relationships and current chronic pain relapse, so – just like every nerd does – I did some research and came up with EIGHT (8) tips.
Today was a good day. The last few weeks have not afforded many good days so this was a pleasant treat. I was able to push through my pain to actually enjoy my husband and be present for the day we had together. It was a good day.
Over the next few weeks will you will notice changes to this website. I am working on revamping this site to better fit my personality, be user-friendly and just look better.