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Endometriosis and Depression: Continuous Pain Can Cause a Dark Spiral

This month marks nine months of continuous pain. Nine months of eating ibuprofen like tic tacs. Nine months of sleeping with a heating pad wrapped around me despite the sweltering heat. Nine months of seeking any form of relief. If you have been following along this journey with me over the last few months, you […]

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Excision Surgery: Why a Heart-Shaped Uterus Is Not Cool

One week ago today, I had my laparoscopic excision surgery performed. During the surgery, the gynecologist discovered that my uterus was heart-shaped and determined, due to my husband and I expressing a desire to conceive within a year, that resection was necessary. This made me look into why have a heart-shaped uterus was something that needed corrected, I mean heart-shaped anything usually means good, right?

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Excision Surgery: Occult Hernias, Bicornuate Uterus, and Birthday Cake

When my gynecologist first mentioned that my bilateral pain may be due to undetectable hernias, I almost wanted to laugh. Seriously, another problem that ultrasounds cannot find? In my ten-plus years of pelvic pain living, I have not once heard the word hernia mentioned. I was fighting tooth and nails to get the doctors to believe I had endometriosis, and here, I finally find a doc to say “Yup, it’s endo…” then she keeps going “but it’s also hernias.”

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Excision Laparoscopy: What to Expect?

With the surgery eleven (11) days away, I am starting to worry about going under the knife. I have not undergone surgery in quite a long time – almost ten years ago was the last time! So, I am doing the only thing that I can do right now, and that is to prepare, prepare, prepare!

I am blessed enough to have my family agree to come down to stay with my husband and I for a few days to help take care of me following my surgery. From having this surgery in 2007, I do know a few things about it. So let me list a couple of pointers for anyone going under the knife like me in the near future.

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Endometriosis Depression: Feeling Alone in the Pain

I move through the evening like I am wadding through a pool of thick, mud and find some way to turn on the shower. I lit the candles and turn off the lights. I turn the shower to the warmest setting I can muster in an attempt to feel, anything. And, I stand. I stand in the same spot for what feels like hours, although I know only seconds have passed. I contemplate my life. Why do I have to feel constant pain? Why do I have to feel alone? Why do I feel isolated? Why am I lost? Why I am feeling this way?

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Clearing Out My Closet for a Fresh Start

The best part of this year is going to be starting it with the surgery I have desperately been awaiting since the start of my pain relapse in November. My doctor’s office finally called on Friday, December 30, and informed me that I will be having my pre-op appointment on January 17, and surgery on January 19, 2017. I could not have been excited – you would have thought I was told I’d won the lottery!

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This Too Shall Pass

Yesterday was not a good day for my pain. I had to leave work early and was lucky to make it home to my husband’s comfort. I got into bed and snuggled up with my heating pad. Unfortunately, as soon as I was starting to feel normal again and went to dinner with the husband – a migraine decided to creep up on me. As soon as we got home, I quickly folded a load of clothes, then texted the husband that I was going to lay down until my headache cleared.