Being a part of the endometriosis community, you hear a lot of stories of women receiving unpleasant diagnoses. Several have discussed depression and mental health concerns, but no one really digs in deep because it’s such a taboo subject. I’ve read plenty of stories of newly diagnosed women, added my “I’m so sorry to hear” […]
Mental health is one of the most difficult topics to bring up with others, apart from sex. No one wants to admit aloud that he or she is suffering from depression or anxiety because in our society it is still perceived as a weakness to some extent. Although there have been numerous studies that a […]
The world is a mystical place. It is full of unexpected adventures and misfortunes that one would never expect at the beginning of her journey. At the start of mine, I was young, naive and easily manipulated by anyone who showed any potential to take me away from my small isolated bubble of an existence. […]
A few months ago, I was contemplating how I would continue life in a new identity as a pain-free person. I thought my surgery in January would be a miracle and cure every ailment I have and I would wake up a new woman!
March is endometriosis awareness month. You have probably seen some profiles on Facebook turn yellow, posts being shared with facts, and friends tweeting #fightlikeagirl. What does it mean though to have a whole month dedicated to your cause? I want to say it means a lot, I want to say that it means that people […]
Nearly six weeks have past since my surgery and it seems that my pain level has decided to even out at a 3-5 range. This is an acceptable range for me considering the realm of hell I was living prior to the surgery, but I would be lying if I did not say that I […]
Having endometriosis or any chronic illness presents a lot of interesting challenges to any relationship, but now that I am married I feel the pressure ten-fold! Since the first moments my husband and I started dating, he knew that our relationship would be a challenge. There was one outing that I think will forever define how our relationship is different than others – the Kennywood trip.
When I went in to have my surgery I knew the inherent risks and had a basic understanding of what to expect. Heck, I was posting about it! I had a previous laparoscopic surgery in 2007, so I thought I was an ol’ pro! Yet, ten years of growth, ten years of aging, and a new procedure make a world of difference.
With the surgery eleven (11) days away, I am starting to worry about going under the knife. I have not undergone surgery in quite a long time – almost ten years ago was the last time! So, I am doing the only thing that I can do right now, and that is to prepare, prepare, prepare!
I am blessed enough to have my family agree to come down to stay with my husband and I for a few days to help take care of me following my surgery. From having this surgery in 2007, I do know a few things about it. So let me list a couple of pointers for anyone going under the knife like me in the near future.
I move through the evening like I am wadding through a pool of thick, mud and find some way to turn on the shower. I lit the candles and turn off the lights. I turn the shower to the warmest setting I can muster in an attempt to feel, anything. And, I stand. I stand in the same spot for what feels like hours, although I know only seconds have passed. I contemplate my life. Why do I have to feel constant pain? Why do I have to feel alone? Why do I feel isolated? Why am I lost? Why I am feeling this way?