Being a part of the endometriosis community, you hear a lot of stories of women receiving unpleasant diagnoses. Several have discussed depression and mental health concerns, but no one really digs in deep because it’s such a taboo subject. I’ve read plenty of stories of newly diagnosed women, added my “I’m so sorry to hear” […]
March is endometriosis awareness month. You have probably seen some profiles on Facebook turn yellow, posts being shared with facts, and friends tweeting #fightlikeagirl. What does it mean though to have a whole month dedicated to your cause? I want to say it means a lot, I want to say that it means that people […]
It has been quite sometime since I have received a notification for any type of blogging award. So, it was rather humbling to click on the bell and see a message stating that a fellow blogger had nominated me for an award called “One Lovely Blog” Award.
Yesterday was not a good day for my pain. I had to leave work early and was lucky to make it home to my husband’s comfort. I got into bed and snuggled up with my heating pad. Unfortunately, as soon as I was starting to feel normal again and went to dinner with the husband – a migraine decided to creep up on me. As soon as we got home, I quickly folded a load of clothes, then texted the husband that I was going to lay down until my headache cleared.
Every person suffering from chronic pain dislikes being asked “Are you feeling better?” or any variation of that question, because we know what the person asking does not understand: chronic means that it is not going away. There will be days that are better than others, and I do find solace in those days or even moments, for there will be days when the pain, nauseous or any other symptom may be too much to handle that day. For now, I find comfort in knowing God will not give me anything I cannot handle, and reminding myself to count my blessings.
One of the largest impacts the last five weeks has been on my relationship with my husband. The pain has caused me to be even more withdrawn than usual, I feel guilty for being tired or in pain and needing to lie down, so I start to imagine that my husband is upset with me. My guilt causes this ideation to take root and soon, even if he was not upset before, he is now frustrated from the constant “are you okay” “what’s wrong” “what can I do” questioning, and I am now worn out and feeling slightly neglected from asking him these questions instead of being cared for during my pain lapse.
Has someone stuck me in a time machine? I feel as though 2005 to 2010 is repeating itself, as I am repeating the diagnostic process all over again for my chronic pain. No one wants to believe the diagnosis in front of them, and just keeps pushing me to the next doctor. Nonetheless, the pain […]
Chronic pain is a fickle thing. It is not always the pain that keeps you down. Sometimes the pain is manageable and it is the fatigue or brain fog that makes the day difficult to power through. You learn how to manage because you have to do it.